SGA: Missed Opportunities (McKay/Sheppard) (G)

[daydreamer]

Title: Missed Opportunities
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Pairing: McKay/Sheppard
Rating: G *sobs*
Warning: character death
Word count: 239
Beta: Thanks to squid for the beta.
A/N: Written using hallucinogenia postcard prompt: I never said “I love you” because I was afraid he would leave. Originally, this postcard was based on Stackhouse/Markham. But, I want to thank hallucinogenia for letting me use this prompt for McKay/Sheppard.
Disclaimer: None of the SGA characters belong to me. Instead, they belong to Brad Wright, Robert. C. Cooper and co.



I never said “I love you” because I was afraid he would leave.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid his reply wouldn’t be the one I wanted.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid it would make me less of a man.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid to show my true feelings.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid it was too soon.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid it would make us official.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid of destroying our relationship.

I never said “I love you” because I was afraid he wouldn’t take me seriously.

I never said “I love you” because I was so afraid of the little things that I never once thought of the inevitable.

I never thought that time would run out.

I never thought he was vulnerable—in my eyes he was superman.

I never thought I would fail him.

I never thought life could be this cruel.

I never thought I would remain standing, if he ever fell.

I never thought he would die before me.

I never thought I would be the one to lead him to his death.

I never thought I’d lose the chance to tell him the truth, to declare my feelings, and now—it’s too late. He’ll never know.