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oh_my_starsTitle: Can’t Lose What You Never Had
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Pairing: John/Carson/Rodney
Category: Angst, AU
Prompt: 001# Beginnings.
Word count: 497…
Beta: Thank you Dawn for the beta.
Summary: Everything had gone wrong, so horribly wrong.
Disclaimer: None of the SGA characters belong to me. Instead, they belong to Brad Wright, Robert. C. Cooper and co.
John continued to stare into his empty glass. Everything had gone wrong, so horribly wrong.
“All you have to do is pick up the phone and dial Rodney’s number.”
“I’m sorry, since when did my personal life become public?”
Kate smirked. “Since you started moping around. And y’know, you’re starting to scare the second graders with your mood swings; you’re worse than Elizabeth.”
She gazed at him searchingly. “I know it’s harder said than done, but would you rather live the rest of your life in regret and think ‘What if?’ or would you prefer to get off your Goddamn lazy ass and do something?!”
“It’s complicated”
“It’s only complicated if we make it complicated.”
“Smartass,” he muttered.
Kate grinned. “Call them,” she said, handing her cell phone over.
“And what am I supposed to say? ‘Hey, guys, it’s John here, we really need to talk about the other night.’”
“Yes, we do.”
John jumped back, his throat dried up as his gaze fell to the table.
Kate stood up, squeezing Carson’s hand as she headed toward Elizabeth.
As both men sat down, an awkward silence erupted.
Rodney took hold of John’s hand, only to startle the second grade teacher into jerking his hand back.
Rodney glanced at Carson indecisively. “John,” he began, his voice soft and full of reassurance, “We really do need talk about the other night.”
Slowly, John raised his head as Rodney continued. “We need to know where we stand. We had a talk-”
“At least you’ve talked about it!” he snapped.
Rodney closed his eyes, running a hand over his mouth. “That’s not fair and you know it! We’ve tried calling you, b-but you keep avoiding our calls and you keep avoiding us!”
John shot up, anger flashing through him. “I don’t need this!” he growled, stalking off.
“That’s right! Run away like usual!” Rodney yelled.
John stopped in his tracks, back-tracking toward both men.
“You’re selfish!” Rodney snapped. “Here we are, ready to give the three of us a chance and you, you run away like the spoilt and ungrateful bastard that you are!”
“Don’t you-”
“Let’s talk about this calmly and rationally,” Carson said.
Rodney snorted, “Didn’t I tell you? Didn’t I tell you he’d be like this?!”
“Fuck you!”
Rodney smirked at the irony.
“John, luv, I-we know ye’re scared, but…”
“I’m not scared!”
Rodney snorted, muttering “Whatever” before stalking off.
Carson gazed at John. “John-”
“Are you coming?” Rodney yelled.
Carson sighed. “We’re prepared to wait for you, John. But don’t take too long, because by the time you’ve made your mind up, we mightn’t be around.”
With that, he left.
This wasn’t how it was meant to be. It wasn’t supposed to be this hard-this complicated.
He was supposed to tell them the truth, tell them how he really felt so that they could start a relationship together-just the three of them. But, now, now it looked like he’d lost them forever-and all because of his cowardice.
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Pairing: John/Carson/Rodney
Category: Angst, AU
Prompt: 001# Beginnings.
Word count: 497…
Beta: Thank you Dawn for the beta.
Summary: Everything had gone wrong, so horribly wrong.
Disclaimer: None of the SGA characters belong to me. Instead, they belong to Brad Wright, Robert. C. Cooper and co.
John continued to stare into his empty glass. Everything had gone wrong, so horribly wrong.
“All you have to do is pick up the phone and dial Rodney’s number.”
“I’m sorry, since when did my personal life become public?”
Kate smirked. “Since you started moping around. And y’know, you’re starting to scare the second graders with your mood swings; you’re worse than Elizabeth.”
She gazed at him searchingly. “I know it’s harder said than done, but would you rather live the rest of your life in regret and think ‘What if?’ or would you prefer to get off your Goddamn lazy ass and do something?!”
“It’s complicated”
“It’s only complicated if we make it complicated.”
“Smartass,” he muttered.
Kate grinned. “Call them,” she said, handing her cell phone over.
“And what am I supposed to say? ‘Hey, guys, it’s John here, we really need to talk about the other night.’”
“Yes, we do.”
John jumped back, his throat dried up as his gaze fell to the table.
Kate stood up, squeezing Carson’s hand as she headed toward Elizabeth.
As both men sat down, an awkward silence erupted.
Rodney took hold of John’s hand, only to startle the second grade teacher into jerking his hand back.
Rodney glanced at Carson indecisively. “John,” he began, his voice soft and full of reassurance, “We really do need talk about the other night.”
Slowly, John raised his head as Rodney continued. “We need to know where we stand. We had a talk-”
“At least you’ve talked about it!” he snapped.
Rodney closed his eyes, running a hand over his mouth. “That’s not fair and you know it! We’ve tried calling you, b-but you keep avoiding our calls and you keep avoiding us!”
John shot up, anger flashing through him. “I don’t need this!” he growled, stalking off.
“That’s right! Run away like usual!” Rodney yelled.
John stopped in his tracks, back-tracking toward both men.
“You’re selfish!” Rodney snapped. “Here we are, ready to give the three of us a chance and you, you run away like the spoilt and ungrateful bastard that you are!”
“Don’t you-”
“Let’s talk about this calmly and rationally,” Carson said.
Rodney snorted, “Didn’t I tell you? Didn’t I tell you he’d be like this?!”
“Fuck you!”
Rodney smirked at the irony.
“John, luv, I-we know ye’re scared, but…”
“I’m not scared!”
Rodney snorted, muttering “Whatever” before stalking off.
Carson gazed at John. “John-”
“Are you coming?” Rodney yelled.
Carson sighed. “We’re prepared to wait for you, John. But don’t take too long, because by the time you’ve made your mind up, we mightn’t be around.”
With that, he left.
This wasn’t how it was meant to be. It wasn’t supposed to be this hard-this complicated.
He was supposed to tell them the truth, tell them how he really felt so that they could start a relationship together-just the three of them. But, now, now it looked like he’d lost them forever-and all because of his cowardice.